Sad, Depressed, and anything in-between

I was talking to My husband (William) and, he told me he probably wont be getting R&R. I am very upset right now, I don't have any words to describe how I am feeling right now... I just don't understand how the Army can be so crule, to us army family... I thought the military ws family friendly? So when they do something like this, it makes me think twice. The military DOES NOT care about us family members at all. I really need to see my husband... If he doesn't get R&R, that means I will have to go a whole year with out seeing him, touching, kissing, hugging him. I know I am a strong woman, but really? You expect me to just sit here and be ok with not seeing my husband... WTF... well before I write a book I better go bc I am very pissed and depressed so I will leave with this I HATE THE ARMY... I HATE DEPLOYMENT.

Fun Fun....

Ok, so I have been in Virginia for about 2 weeks now, and we went to the Washington DC Zoo Saterday (7-10-2010). I must say that is a HUGE Zoo. We were there all day and still did not see everything. Branson really enjoyed himself, and Addie was so good the whole day. So I will say we had a wonderful day with a 17 month old and a almost 4 month old. Next weekend we are going to DC, yet again to go visit some museums. I am taking Branson to the air and space museum, which I know he will love bc he flips out when he sees a plane in th sky it is the cutest thing ever. I will be posting pic later, when I get back to Fl. But for now, I am relaxing and enjoying my Vacation.

Computer!!

Ugh..... so wednesday, my computer decided it wanted to crash. My Hard Drive went. I was not a happy wife/camper. I was suppose to leave for VA today (7-2-2010) but that didn't happen, bc I was waiting on the people to get done fixing my computer, because I was not leavig with out it, I talk to my husband who is 3000 miles away on here, and this laptop is the only way I get to SEE him. I would have been very upset if I had to leave it behind. But I got it back at 5:15pm (7-2-2010) Thank goodness.

Moody

Ok I bought my husband a webcam for while he is over in Afghanistan, he has had now for a month, So I was excepting to see him more then what I have. I have seen him a total of maybe 4 or 5 times, and he gets on everyday that he is not out on patrol. I don't mind him letting people use it but I bought it for US mainly ME (lol) but no he lets everyone else use it but noone would let him use theirs when he asked... So it makes me really upset because there are days I just need to see him and I ask where the webcam is and he says ''oh I am letting so an so use it'' Does he not care if he gets to see me? does he think it is ok if we just talk? I love talking to him on't get me wrong but I would much rather see him then just talk all the time. I need to see him more then just talk, I just hate how he lets everyone use the webcam like he doesn't know how to tell them to tell their wives to go out and buy one like I had too. I don't want to be mad at him but how can I not be when he does that, it just makes me really upset. I know it shouldn't but it does. So I guess I will be moody a lot because he is going to keep doing it..

My baby

This right here is my handsome/sexy husband in uniform... he is over in afghanistan right now he is a gunner for now but soon he will be promoted to specialist so yay!! he is very cocky but confident and just think 10 years ago he use to be very shy nope not now, now he is very out spoken and is not afraid of anything or anyone but sometimes that can get you in trouble but he knows what he is doing he WILL come home safe that I know because the good lord above is watchig over him everyday.

My world

This is the love of my life, I would be lost without him not that it takes someone to complete me but he is a very BIG part of my life. He is the father of the most wonderful kids we have, he is loving, sweet, romantic, adorable, handsome, Mr right, amazing and just simply my everything. He is our kids and my HERO I could not have asked god for a better soul mate. I will always love William M Bussy til the day I die. I really don't know what I did to deserve him because he is such an amazing man he loves me for who I am, he doesn't try to change me to be someone else he loves the fact I am a dork and can admit it he loves me for my goofy sense of humor, My big beautiful eyes, My smile My heart my personality he just loves me for me and I can not thank him enough for that. I love him he makes me feel safe, secure warm and everything in between. I can not explain in words what he means to me I guess I could just say he means the world to me. I would take a bullet for him. I would jump out in front of a bus to save him. I would die to save him. I love him to the moon and back... Irly&Irmy William Bussy

Finally

I got to talk to my husband on skype today, I always enjoy seeing is handsome face, when I actually get to see him it helps me know that he is ok and somewhat sane lol. I love saying hello but I also know with a hello there is always a good bye and really I don't know why they call it ''Goodbye'' because there is nothing good about saying bye to your husband who is in a war zone and who is 3000 miles away. When he has to get off because he only gets 30 mins with me yea thats right I said ONLY 30 mins when he has to go I stare at the sign off symbol for like 5 mins to make sure he really is gone for the day/night it is so hard and I don't know why I put myself through it sometimes but my heart breaks everytime we say Not goodbye but just bye I think I am going to tell him I want to start saying I'll be seeing you instead of goodbye because then we are saying bye on a different level. I love skype and the fact that it is FREE!! I would go insane if I was not able to see him atleast once a week, but luckily I get to see him everyday when he is not out on patrol. I thought it was going to be like basic where I was lucky if I got to talk to him once a month but deployment is better in some ways like he gets to call me really when he wants do skype when he has free time just the only different thing is he is 3000 miles away and not in the United States obviously....